Beautiful Goodbye

         And now, the end is near.. 12/31/12, only a few hours to go before the year ends. I am trying to say things that I hope would make sense. Hmm, I can't think of anything but how excited I am for the coming year. But just for the sake of finishing this "nearly outdated" post, I would like to share what 2012 had been,well, at least, for me..

          I can plainly say that 2012 had made me a person who I want to be. I've learned to do a few things, which of course, I'm not used to do or simply, I didn't want to do because most of the time, I really love to do nothing. Haha! Kidding aside, among those few things are:

1. Capturing a picture (I am not really fond of pictures that's why I don't bother having a camera or even taking just a few "shots". There's another shot I like. Guess what? Cheers. LOL  =)
2. Listening to RNB's (I'm so used to listening to Alternative Rock, Acoustic and Feel Good music only, but this year, I did try to listen to RNB songs.)
3.  Watching American TV Series/Shows (Colonial mentality aside but their shows are really entertaining and some are just so funny and addictive that you won't mind spending more hours watching them than sleeping. Hehe)

Furthermore, 2012 has opened a lot of opportunities and personal developments for me and that includes:

1. Having a not so wavy hair (Thanks to Heaven's!)
2. Refraining from drinking and having some nights out (Thanks to the "semi-ulcer" that I felt and made me a little afraid. Haha!)
3. Having a work that's one-of-a-kind and I am grateful of (Thanks to EBPUI!)

And last but definitely not the least, 2012 have taught me significant lessons that I ought to remember and bear in my mind for the rest of my life:

1. Everything is a matter of perfect timing, if things don't go your way today, maybe tomorrow or the other day, it will.
2. We should not always let our mind to rule over our heart coz sometimes, what we truly feel is what will make things right and not what others think is right. Similar to a Jack Johnson song, "You don't always have to hold your head higher than your heart." =)
3. Honesty is the lifeblood of every relationship.

Goodbye 2012, it was so nice meeting you and having you as a memorable part of my life. Nunca te Olvidare!

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The Hangover Effect

          When you get yourself drunk, the toxic effect of the alcohol will not take
place just as the time you drank but instead it is always an after effect, an aftermath, a
hangover. Alcohol, no matter how little the amount you had, will always have an effect
on you. You see, it is not always a cause of extensive headache or an annoying nausea
because sometimes, it helps a person to forget and get over something. But can one really
forget?

          Just like alcohol, love has a two-fold effect on everyone. There is one, which
causes a not-so-good effect and another one which causes a not-so-bad result. Those are
just approximates because truthfully, I don’t believe that love can ever be that good or
that bad. It just depends on how a person takes it. If he takes love as the most important
thing for him, then be it, whereas, if he thinks that love is just a typical thing, it’s his
prerogative. No one can change his stand for it, of course, not unless he let it.
Can a person be drunk at love? Yes, it can. It happens when one had too much
love for a particular person and he/she can do nothing but continue to love him/her
even though he/she left him hanging. Those love drunks are most commonly identified
as martyrs and/or masochists who love hurting themselves by constantly remembering
their former love and worse, desperately hoping that maybe someday, their lost love will
come back to them and they will have a sweeter relationship for the second time, or even
for the nth time around. Over and over, they don’t mind being the one who takes all the
pain while their ex-love goes on being the pain provider. In the end, they suffer from the
melancholy of being alone, literally, and worse, they feel that their lives had just become
worthless. It is in this course of action that the world’s unhappiest creatures are born.
Undeniably, it is such an inevitable downside of love.

          But flipping a coin on the other side, we can see to it that although love has a
striking downside, it has a remarkable role in mankind after all. It is because after we got
drunk and had the utmost hangover, surely, our headache will be over and we can vividly
think once again. Love was made to put to test how far we can go for someone and how
we can handle heartaches and broken hearts. And if we passed the test, another love will
come our way. Though it’s unpredictable when and where it would come, assurance of
its occurrence is definitely high. We just have to wait and be patient for love has its own
way of entering our lives. Do not ever lose hope. We should bear in mind that our latter
love didn’t end up well because another one, which is far better than the last will come. It
is just a continuous cycle of finding and losing a loved one until we end up with the ones
we are fated to be with for the rest of our lives.

          Love makes the world go round so as a couple of drinks make you go round in
circles and see twinkling stars when you had too much. But in any how, are you still
willing to get drunk?

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The Otherside

If there is love, there is hatred
If there is right, there is wrong
If there is light, there is darkness
And if there’s an end, there’s always a beginning.

          The magic of life not only rests on how it makes men the most peculiar being
ever created. How they go crazy over it, how to win over something or someone and how
to be at the verge of success, are not what life offers us the most. Somehow, the most
important credit that we had from it is how it keeps all of us alive, not just literally but in
all aspects of our being as well.

          Up until now, and until forever, I guess, we are all bound to face myriad ironies
that life particularly bequeaths to us. They may not please us at all times but at least, we
learn something from them and we acquire such lessons that are vital to humanity.
Love, we do love and it is said to be the greatest gift. Right, it really is but
don’t we know that above all things, it is love that triggers someone to be at the abyss of
hatred? It is because you can never be hurt by a person whom you do not love or you do
not care about at all. The hurt that we’re talking about here is not the simple hurt you feel
when somebody did not invite you to a party or that when someone tells you that your
clothes do not look good on you or even that when a person laid his hands on you and
physically hurt you. Those are just petty, this hurt is the kind that pierce through your
soul and that seems to stab you to death. How many of us have been down after a very
sudden break-up to a very long relationship? How many of us have had our lives almost
taken by ourselves because someone we love passed away? And how many of us have
wished that the person whom we loved before but betrayed us, be out of luck and face
misfortunes? It would definitely be a very significant number. Being hurt is inevitable
especially when we share ourselves to people, hoping that they will share themselves,
their characters, their wealth and their whole being for us in return. It is absolutely
beyond our control and when we get hurt, we tend to hate the person who did us wrong.
And worse, sometimes, it’s not just hate, coz there comes a time that we curse them for
everything which in effect, turns us to be the person we don’t really are.

          But it should not be this way; a wrong deed can never be made right by doing
another wrong deed. Hurt can never be replaced by hatred so as a broken heart can never
be healed by another failing relationship. Ironically, it should not be but sadly, it’s the
way things are. We love, and then we hate. We do right, afterwards, we do wrong. We
urge to see the light, but then we embrace the darkness. No one can really escape these
predestined ironies of life.

          In this light, we still have a refuge. It’s not too late for us to change. If odds
hinder us now, let’s beat them and if we can’t, we just have to learn to cope with it. It’s
just like that. Coz, in the walks of life, if there’s an end, there’s always a beginning…

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LOVE AND LOAN The Truth-in-Loving (TIL)

Having a loan is never easy. You’ll have to undergo a certain process and provide standard requirements. It really takes a lot of time, effort and patience but once you had one that perfectly suits your preference and capacity to pay, approval is just a step away, but of course, COMPLIANCE to the requirements is a prerequisite.

It’s just definitely like love…

            A person can never obtain love if the “LOVE” Cycle won’t take place. So how does it happen? First and foremost, there should be an APPLICATION. In its slightest sense, application refers to the way a person exchange words with another trying to seek significant details of just anything about that person. In other words, it’s the getting-to know-each-other stage. After this stuff, SUBMISSION follows. The person who aims to be loved presents his/her whole personality to the person he/she pursues. He/She submits his strengths, likes, and even weaknesses and dislikes. An over-all package, it may seem. Of course, it is to express his INTENT TO PROCEED with his submission. It is just up to that another person whether he/she would accept his/her submission or not.

And provided that REQUIREMENTS are complete, there is automatically a sense of AGREEMENT between the two of them. Commonly, if there is an agreement, there is what we call GOOD FAITH because even if risks are on hand, there is faith between them that maybe, everything will turn out fine in the end. So, be it. While they are together, it is deemed that there is FAIR LENDING of each other’s whole being. One lends his time, effort and resources for the other one and vice-versa. It’s just a give-and-take process for them to have EQUAL OPPORTUNITY on everything. As time goes by, they strive hard to be an immeasurable ASSET for each other and not a burdensome LIABILITY.

You see, everything is just a matter of togetherness-- a relationship. And, after a reasonable time of APPRAISAL of the bond they both share, they can both decide if their relationship would go to the next level, that one they call “LOVE”, in which we describe as a metaphor for “LOAN”, or have it as a waste and put it on the RECYCLE BIN.

           

Eventually, neither of the two options could put the “LOVE” Cycle to an end ‘coz the more the people apply for a “LOAN,” the more those APPLICATIONS have a chance to be APPROVED.

Would you like to be my UNDERWRITER? :-)

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Half - Empty, Half - Full

The glass is half-empty, half-full

The man who drank is a fool

Believing that the liquor is water

All that’s left is a hangover

The journal is half-empty, half-full

Like a mere requirement in school

Entries are just make-believes

A wishful thinking from under the sleeves

And so the love they kept and grown have

had an offspring

At the age of 16, they have to raise another

being

In just a blink of an eye, the word was all

over

A child out of wedlock is soon to come over

The room is half-empty, half-full

Not so warm and not so cool

Sitting alone in one corner

Truth is soon to uncover

It happened a year, and a year ago

When everything seems aglow

Love came by unexpectedly

Followed by meetings under a mango tree

The relationship grew as time went by

Feelings for each other were no way to hide

But then the bond was suddenly discovered

Two families had since been angered

This triggered a more chaotic situation

Leaving them caught between love and

family consideration

Where to go? What to do? When will all the

pain subdue?

Another life is hanging, the image were all

so blue

Suddenly, fate had a very dreadful twist

One day, the woman felt something she

can’t resist

The fluid of life accidentally slipped away

Then what came next are pictures of black

and gray

Two lives departed, another is bewildered

The events had brought about nothing but

hatred

Seems like a lifetime has easily passed by

And all he can do is nothing but to cry

They say the more the heart is hindered, the

more it falls deeply in love

Because for a couple so young in age, love

is all they have

Nothing really beats our every first

time

Even when they’re together no more or their

music’s ran out of rhyme

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The glass is half-empty, half-full

The journal is half-empty, half-full

The room is half-empty, half-full

The man is half-empty, half-full

A fool at school who lost his cool

Sitting alone in the four-cornered room

Waiting to hang himself in gloom.

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Anything Under The Sun

..”Sometimes, people come into our lives and willingly, we let them in. We open ourselves to
them and we bring them close to our hearts like, in that moment, they just found a home. But a home
is not what they really seek for but instead, a place for temporary dwelling. They are not meant to stay,
rather, just to hang out. And after quite some time, they’ll leave. Whether we are consciously or
unconsciously aware of their heading off our lives, still, we cannot deny the fact that we can’t have
them forever, or for as long as we want because sometimes, people just happen to pass by our lives, but
we can’t have them to stand by us. Undeniably, nothing is really permanent but change...”



..”Having someone around on a plain, boring day is the best benefit of a friend. You’ll have
someone to talk with, to laugh with and even to cry with. A friend is like a dark chocolate for even if it
gets bitter sometimes, the natural sweetness can still be felt and in the end, it’ll still taste like heaven.
No matter how many trials a friendship may have gone through, still, the bond will not be ruined and
the closeness will remain in tact. Indeed, a friend today will always be a friend tomorrow…”



..”When you say you’ve moved on, it doesn’t show how strong you really are. Sometimes, a
person’s real strength comes when he’d been through letting go because you can never let go of
something or someone if in the first place, they haven’t been yours but we can always move on with
things even those without our grasp. It’s just our human nature to feel a more painful feeling when we
face letting go than what we feel when we are moving on. So when you cried a river of tears when you
were challenged to move on, just think of an ocean of tears you might cry when you had to surpass
letting go…”


..”We don’t need to be always in a hurry. We don’t need to skip from an unfinished task to a
new task in which we are not certain if it’s going to work. We don’t have to push the time forward so
that everything would change in just a blink of an eye. What’s the rush? Some people in poor health
desperately wish that they still have plenty of time in this world and yet, here you are not spending
your time appropriately. Could you at least for a little while think about lost moments, opportunities
and relationships because of your time mismanagement? That would probably take a long while, right?
So, take a break, have a meaningful pause and think about it…”



 ..”Never put yourself off the limits. Never say you can do everything or you can have whatever
you want because a man as we are, there are many things that we are not capable of. At some point in
our lives, we’ll have an Achilles heel and whether we like it or not, all we can do is to accept that bitter
truth. It’s not wrong to say that you’re weak because sometimes, admitting that you’re not that strong
shows how strong you really are for not pushing yourself beyond the limits and not pretending that
you can do something when the truth is you really can’t…. We are not perfect, God made us as such
because he wants to remind us that without Him, we cannot stand alone. A smooth-sailing
relationship with God is the best refuge we could ever have when everything around us falls into
pieces…”


..”Losing a loved one does not mean that you also have to lose yourself on the process of
moving on with that tragic episode of your life.  At first, of course, you have all the right to be sad and
weep for your loss but it’s definitely pathetic if you can hardly live your life without them. A thing lost
can never be regained especially if it’s in the will of the Lord. So, when you are currently experiencing
such trial, don’t ever ask God why of all people, you were the one whom He had taken a loved one.
Instead, be thankful that although you lost a person so dear to you, He is always ready to give you His
helping hand whenever you call. When your life gets a little messy because of problems, don’t say,
“God, I have a big problem,” rather, say, “Problem, I have a big God.” And if you do, you’ll make an
exceptionally tough person out of you. Tough enough to withstand any obstacles and pound any
impediments...”



..”It’s not always that we have to take life seriously. What is fun for, if you just won’t have it?
Life gets a little better when you know how to have fun, despite life’s constant struggles…”



..”Everyone gets old but not everyone grows up...”



..”Love someone at his worst and you’ll know what the best love is. It’s not about “who” we
love but “how” we love.



..”People are vulnerable yet they often seek pain. Like, we know it’d make us sick, but we love
being in the rain…”



..”Of all the things that I’m capable of, I’m always thankful that I could love. Love’s a gift; we
should all have it...”



..”At some point in our lives, we have to wake up. Forget our vivid daydreams and superficial
wishful thinking. We cannot live on the clouds if we can’t face the sun. Reality is just within our reach,
we just have to dwell on it…”



..”Cry if you want to, weep if you have to but never ever treat yourself as a good-for-nothing
waste. Don’t let the world pull you down; instead hold your head high so you won’t face the ground.
Nobody could ever beat you, not unless you let it...”

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Caution: Tending a "Hurt Attack"

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                                                   Tending a “Hurt Attack”
               As this world becomes more and more state-of-the-art, everything in it is expected to level-up and have the optimum progress. We see towering heights everywhere, we are in fad with the latest fashion, we use the most high-technology gadget, we go to the best designed malls where everything can be found and we are absolutely up-to-date with what’s new. Seems like a huge wave of advancement has taken us, isn’t it? But what if everything has moved on except you? Will you rather let yourself be left behind than move forward? Is it because you are having a hurt attack?

I-Definition
A “hurt” attack, commonly known as broken-heartedness, is an unavoidable disorder primarily caused by the love bug virus. Commonly, symptoms include lack of appetite, inability to sleep, irritability, despair and incapacity to mingle with others. Severe cases include extreme depression in which, when not treated accordingly, will result to suicidal tendencies. Treatment of hurt attack is not yet concrete in terms of easy recovery as of now but researches are on going to identify how this disorder can be properly treated.

II-Classification
1. Sudden Hurt Attack- characterized by a feeling of hurt due to a sudden loss of a person or thing. Upon feeling hurt, grief usually follows. This kind is one that can’t be cured easily for it takes a lot of time forgetting the lost ones and finally overcoming the hurt. Death or unexpected loss is the most common factor that triggers a sudden hurt attack. Individuals experiencing this often opt to be alone and cease any form of communication and expression of happiness. They are most likely to have suicidal tendencies.

2. Third Party Hurt Attack- a form of hurt experienced upon betrayal of a loved one to have a new relationship with another person, also known as a “third party.” Being dumped is definitely hurtful especially when the person your loved one dumped you for is not who you expected your former love will love, or even like. Attacks are strong whenever you see them together or even hear their names, relatively as when you know they’re happy while you’re not. People experiencing this kind
hate being pitied and being the subject of conversations. They don’t want another “party” to come in between their love-hate situation.

3. Rejection-induced Hurt Attack- Rejection is one of the main causes of hurt attack. Having been rejected, a person tends to hate the person who refused him/her because of the feeling of being not worth a try. It hurts even more when rejection happened when you still pursue a relationship that has already come to an end. For this kind, hurt level is only minimal because once a new prospect is found, moving on will just be easy but the thing to consider is “is it worth it?”

4. Fortuitous Hurt Attack- There is such thing as fortuitous events, or unexpected occurrence. Hurt attack on this form happens when unexpectedly, the person we love had an early marriage or had a child with another man/woman. How would you take it if there was no other choice left for you but to stop and move on? It hurts big time though but having experienced this kind of hurt shows how strong you are as a person. Oops, before I forget, knowing out of the blue that your man or woman is gay is fortuitous, right? I guess it’s another unbearable pain.

5. Oblivious Hurt Attack- They say when a heart breaks, it don’t break even. It is positively true because some people go through a situation where unconsciously, the relationship he/she shares with someone, reached its end all of a sudden. It’s like, it is just you that clings to that relationship but the other party on it takes that it’s over. Next thing you know, you are already left hanging and desperately hoping for reconciliation. People experiencing this kind often blame themselves for everything. Why it didn’t work, why they were left behind and why does it have to hurt that much are all that they can say. Actually, there are no words, only questions.

III-Treatment
             Over the years, tending a hurt attack seems like a long shot because in one way or another, we all experience being hurt in many unexplainable ways and instances. And even though we experience being hurt from time to time, still, we can’t say how we are able to get over it. It just happens. From being the oh-so-lonely us, happiness still finds us, no matter what. But of course, time has a big role on this.
But since the subject has brought it into this, it is advisable that in order to regain from a hurt attack, the following should be practiced during or after a hurt attack:


1. Think of happy thoughts. As much as possible, don’t let yourself be taken over by the pain. Loneliness only creeps into your soul, if you let it in. The best defense mechanism for a lonely heart is to have a hopeful and spiritual soul.

2. If you were rejected, don’t ever think of reconstructing yourself just to make the person you like, like you too. If they can’t accept you for who you are right now, tomorrow, they also wouldn’t. You are just wasting your time. Instead, find another one who’s far better than the one who rejected you. All your toils will pay off, just wait and see.

3. Never assume that you are not worth a try, or not worthy to be loved. You just complicate your sufferings if you’d do that. Remember, when all else fails, your only refuge is yourself. How could anyone love you or even like you if you can’t love or like yourself wholly? How can you accept the things that may come your way if in the first place, you can’t accept yourself? Think about it.

4. Don’t ever blame the fortuitous events that ruptured your life because being an unexpected occurrence, it isn’t really meant to be beneficial all the time. Sometimes, they happen to make or break you. If you give in easily to the call of depression, you only bring yourself into the abyss of extreme loneliness. Do not waste a lonely lifetime just because you can’t move on or you just don’t want to. Acceptance is easy if you just have an open mind and if you don’t, maybe it’s time that you unfasten yourself, your mind and your soul a bit. Everything’s going to change whether we like it or not. Nothing’s temporary so why worry, right?

5. Oblivion is not an excuse to refuse letting go. What if you really have to? You can never hinder what has been planned by God.

6. Pray. Make it a habit. In times of trials, the most powerful weapon is a sound relationship with Him. God made us as a man to understand that not all we wanted would be given to us. If we can have everything, we can never appreciate life’s simple presents.

IV-Prevention
There is no other preventive measure to a hurt attack but to avoid being drowned with the love bug virus. Just a simple dose of attachment is advisable. Once you feel that the virus enters your heart, don’t just allow it to penetrate. Take some rest and relax to comprehensively think about it. After a day or two, decide on the techniques you are going to use in case the virus becomes prevalent.
So, having imparted to you this piece of information, I wish you good luck. May you have the best health and an assault-free life. Just take it slow and know every do’s and don’ts. Love once, love some more. Be hurt once; don’t let it happen once more. =)

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First Scribble sa Happy Goodbye

          So eto na nga, this is probably my very first blog..it has to make sense. :) At this moment, ang tanging nasa isip ko lang eh excitement. Hehe. Someone told me that I should think about being a blogger, so here I am now, I did not only think about it, I absolutely gave it a try, right?

          So, what would I fuzz about today? Let me see. Hmm, have you ever experienced being in a situation where you have to leave but you simply can't? Like, hindi mo maigalaw ang paa mo palabas ng pinto at kahit anong pilit mo na kumbinsihin ang sarili mo na aalis ka na talaga eh hindi mo pa rin talaga magawa? Hay, lagi akong ganyan, parang hindi ako nasasanay. Weird pero para sa akin, ang hirap-hirap-hiiiiiirrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaap talaga ng isang goodbye. Sinabi pa na "good" eto pero susundan din naman ng "bye" so wala din di ba? There is really no such thing as a happy goodbye.

          Magiging happy ka ba kapag sinabihan ka ng jowa mo na "Bye, hindi na kita mahal, may jowa na kasi ako na bago..hmm, mas maganda siya sa'yo, mas mayaman pa. So pano, hanap ka na lang din ng bago mo ha?' O kaya kapag sinabihan ka ng tatay mo ng, "Anak, aalis na ang tatay ha, maging mabait kang bata, ikaw na ang bahala sa pamilya at sa bahay natin. Alam mo kasi lilipat na ako. Wala sa mommy mo ang problema, nasa akin. Pero wag kang mag-alala, wala kang kapatid sa labas at hindi naman ako masyadong lalayo. Diyan lang ako sa bahay ng ninong mo, flatmates kami." Hirap 'no? Milyong beses na siguro tayong namaalam at napagpaalamanan pero hindi pa rin natin kaya maging masaya with a simple goodbye. Seems like we are not getting used to it.
But what's even more depressing is when goodbye was never heard or even felt. Yung tipong in just a blink of an eye, someone or something in your life became out of your grasp. Parang **poof, it became Koko Crunch! Parang nagulat ka na lang, wala na pala sya, so wala ka nang nagawa kundi ang magmukmok sa isang tabi at i-wish kay Santa na bigyan ka ulit sa Pasko ng kagaya ng nawala sa'yo.

          Ganun lang naman talaga eh, when something leaves, another one will come which is far better than the one you lost.  Tsaka pana-panahon lang yan, kung nawala sa'yo ang isang bagay, baka naman hindi pa siya para sa'yo na makuha ngayon, malay mo sa susunod na birthday mo pa pala, nagmamadali ka lang.

          Ayan, medyo antok na ko, dapat ko na siguro tapusin 'to.

          Paalis ako bukas.. pero ayooooko pa!!! Hayy.. :(

          Goodbye, pen's dropped.

          Toot. **off**

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